As a parent of children with ASD, I often hear other parents break their hearts over their children's attitude to them, and the phrase "I just wish they knew" is often said by the parent.
So, I want to let you know what I see and hear from my children, even though they can't tell me:
"I Know" By Kate Shippey
I know you held me tight when I was born, I loved being held tight.
I know you wanted the world for me, I loved that you wanted that world.
I know you broke your heart when I didn't meet my milestones, I tried my best.
I know you cried most nights, I wanted to hug you.
I know you discussed me with the specialists, I wanted to thank you.
I know they advised, supported and helped, I was comforted by the attention.
I know you didn't know where to turn, I wanted to hold your hand.
I know I kept you awake at night, I tried to be quiet.
I know you struggled with my meltdown, I just couldn't put my problem into words.
I know sometimes you were embarrassed, I'm sorry.
I know you try your best for me, I wish I could show how much I appreciate it.
I know you get frustrated by my repetition, I try to quieten it.
I know you want me to tell you that I love you, I do, everyday, in my own way.
I just wish you knew